A new year, a new beginning...

Well, here it is towards the end of the first day of a new year. When I was younger, I never really thought about making resolutions and really sticking to them. But as time has gone on, I have. :) Over the past 3 years, I've been able to incorporate those resolutions into my life and feel good about being able to do so. I've been really thinking about what I want to 'resolve' this year. The dictionary's definition of "resolution" is: "the act of resolving or determining upon an action or course of action, method, procedure, etc" The thesaurus defines "resolution" as: "determination, strong will". Some of the synonyms of "resolution" are: boldness, constancy, courage, dauntlessness, devotedness, decision, declaration, dedication, doggedness, earnestness, energy, firmness, fixed purpose, fortitude, guts, heart, immovability, intent, intention, judgment, mettle, moxie*, obstinacy, perseverance, pluck, purpose, purposefulness, pervasiveness, relentlessness, resoluteness, resolve, settlement, sincerity, spirit, spunk, staunchness, staying power, steadfastness, stubbornness, tenacity, verdict, willpower. I like the sound of any or all of those words... they sound a lot like me :)LOL... especially strong willed. One thing I don't want for my life in 2009 is to be the direct opposite of being "resolved"... that being complacent, indecisive, or weak.

Now, trying to put into words what I've decided to work on this year....

• first and foremost I am going to be in the Word more than I ever have been. I love knowing that whenever I open God's Word, The Bible, that the Almighty is actually speaking to me. And although I've read so much of the Bible, I'm just know learning how to hear God speak to me directly.
• I'm also going to work on accepting me just the way I am. Something I just don't understand about "the media" and real life is that.... a day never goes by when there isn't a news report or an article on the internet saying how obese we Americans are, yet... I've been over weight all my life and have been to probably 5 doctors in my 53 years and yet NONE of them EVER talk to me about my weight... and I'm not 5, 10, or even 20 pounds overweight, I am eligible for a lap band surgery, so you can imagine how much overweight I must be... and WITH blood pressure problems, you would think that my weight would be the first thing they mention... BUT they don't. I'm the one who has to ask... beg for help with loosing weight.... I've even had three of those drs say to me "it's more important that you are healthy at the weight that you are than to 'diet' and loose your good health" So... why do we hear one thing on the news and hear something different in 'real life'? One day while picking up all this medicine I'm on, I told the pharmacist about how I thought I would get the lap band surgery, and she and the other pharmacist that was there were so upset that I even thought to do that. They told me NOT TO DO IT!! I was a little surprised by their opinions. But I asked why and they told me that they see so many people who have had any weight loss surgery and the people do loose weight, but within a short time, those same people regain it and are worse off than before the surgery. I told the two pharmacists that I would think about it. So, I guess.... no I AM going to work on just accepting me the way I am...
  
• But I'm not going to just do that, I am going to start some kind of exercise program. Even if it's just walking to the post office down the street, I'm going to do something.

I think those 3 things are enough to keep me busy and enough to focus on. :)

In closing, I want to thank all of you for stopping by my blog. I'm so happy that so many of you are from outside the US. How exciting that cyberspace can link people of all countries together. Please visit often :)

As usual, I also want to share a song that touches my spirit. I hope that this is my 'legacy' too...